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Why does it have to hurt so bad...
Why is it like this...
What have I done?..

why
why
why...


Lots of things going on.. been soooo damn busy and I couldnt even let go of these thoughts goin on my head. Wahhh! I need a breather real quick.
Im so sick and tired. Really tired and fed up. I want to disappear and never come back. I'll take that back. I just want to get out of work. Im so stressed. You might ask why, long story. Its just so sad and hard...


Why

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Its been a while since the last time I wrote here. Pretty occupied and tired...
Its Saturday again, I cant imagine how fast time flies, just writing my entry last week and here I go again, another entry.
Yesterday, I was asked to make a decision if I want to move up or stay where I am.
Well, who wouldn't want to move up right? But the thing is, I don't know where to go. I've been here on this job for almost 2 years and still, a mere eRep. But I don't have any grievances or what so ever. I don't know where to go. That's it. Maybe it just happen I feel so mediocre on my present job. I think I'm on a career limbo right now.
You see, my parents are asking me to quit my job. My mom said she's old enough, she said I wont progress because I'm a mere employee. Not unless working your own money, it offers the comfort of your own time, and of course the money. Another consideration is my present work now, I love the people Im working with. Its my first job, I learned a lot, met friends, acquaintances and other things. I hate to leave my job because I'm really enjoying it, even though some of my friends are influencing me to resign. Easier said than done huh. . Everything to me is just vague, just working and waiting till the day ends. I'm not like this, really. I desire to move up, be successfully but I just don't know where to start. I was planning to resign this year, but at the back of my mind I just cant. I know my mom is right but Im still enjoying my time here. Maybe this weekend off will help me to contemplate and think where I want really want to do in my life...